I’m moving house (I know…) on Wednesday, if not Wednesday then the following weekend. I kinda ended up crashing Iain’s place for the past few months after moving in with my mum, but now I have to go back to my mum’s ’cause Iain don’t want me no more … kidding! His tenancy agreement runs out so we gotta get our stuff out and basically slum it for 3 months until we can move into our own place…the place with the MORTGAGE! Love that word. Mortgage. Never spoken as it’s written though… the t is kinda silent? Random ill thinking.

So, no singing for a long time… so depressing. In the long run it’ll be worth it though. I’ll still have the internet so will be able to update over the following months.

Gonna dash (hobble) away now as Iain has made me get-well sausages and mash potato :)

My New PC!

I know that a lot of people have said to me “AMAGAD DO NOT GET IT!!!” but srsly, I am currently running Vista, my PC takes up to 20 minutes to boot, and I frequently experience high blood pressure due to the “Blue Screen Of Death”. I’m pretty sure my new PC is going to eliminate those problem areas very quickly. I think a lot of people (as wonderfully helpful as they were) were expecting that I needed top of the range this-and-that, but honestly, all I was looking for was a faster and Vista-free PC. I have a dual core netbook running Win 7, and in comparison to my current desktop – its frikkin’ amazing, so I have no concerns that a quad core is going to be amazing. I play games casually, and don’t get the latest games going so I don’t feel that the graphics card is going to be a massive issue. The graphics card details are: Radeon HD 7560D 1024MB GDDR3 DirectX 11 Graphics. A lot of people /facepalmed when they saw this, but seeing as I only really game for a few hours a day and don’t participate in 25 man raids (don’t play WoW anymore) or anything particularly taxing, I’m pretty sure it will be able to handle Guild Wars 2. If not, I’ll pop my trusty (albeit old and slightly dusty) Nvidia GeForce 9500GT into the tower.

Dudeadin also ordered the same PC as me (such a copycat!) and his is due to arrive tomorrow, mine the day after… the day I go back to work! God dammit!

Aside from PCs, I’ve been recording a little bit more again lately. It’s been fun and feels like a massive weight off my shoulders when I finally take some time out to sing. The situation in which I’m singing is still not ideal and I think it’s fueling my feelings of wanting to rush everything I’m doing. It’s never nice to release something that you know you could have done better had you had the time and definite privacy.

In work, I am, well… I guess lost is a good word to describe it. I love my job, and I love working and having that independence. This is probably going to sound really “oh woe is me” but I always feel like an unappreciated kid at work. Because I look younger than my 27 years and never argue or drag my feet, I feel that a lot of the time I get treated like a 16 year old who’s just come out of school with no experience and no care or loyalty for my work. But it’s not like that at all! I have been in retail since I was 16 which is a hefty 11 years experience under my belt, and I have so many ideas and suggestions to make things better in the retail jobs I’ve had – present job included! But I am always shot down in flames, told that I’m a “hard seller” which I’m definitely not and 100% against. When I asked one of my previous managers if he was okay with me making suggestions and giving ideas to him, he replied “You can…but I’m the manager and what I say goes.” . That’s fine. He was the manager and what he says does “go”, but at least say it in a way that doesn’t make you look like an utter c…<insert C word here>. I’ve been looking into courses lately, there is a Vet course I’d like to do, it would be a perfect career for me. It’s just working out how to do it as the shorter course is full-time and 4 years which means I couldn’t work along side it to fund it, and the longer course would allow me to continue working but is 7 years! Sooner or later I’m gonna have to sit down and really work out what I want to do with my life. They say that your 20′s is the perfect age to do so.

I’m going to be moving in March. I can’t wait, although it does feel like I’ve spent a large piece of my life moving my possessions from one place to another. This will be my 9th move since I was 14. But…still I look forward to having my own place once again. Been floating between my mum’s and Iain’s place since September with no room to myself so getting back into my own place is gonna be heavenly.

It’s finally snowed here too. Well.. it was more wet sleet, but IT STILL SORT OF SNOWED! Always get that excited feeling in my tummy that I’ll wake up the next morning and we’ll be snowed in and have to sit in all day drinking hot chocolate, playing with Maggie and watching trashy TV ^_^

I guess that’s it for the moment though. Hope you’re all well! xx

I’m working tomorrow morning (Xmas eve) which is a little bit of a shame as I was planning to go to my dad’s for the day and stay over, but my boss is letting me do half a day so I’ll leave at 1ish, go to my mum’s, grab my stuff and then do the hour long journey to my dad’s. Really looking forward to it (and not just because I know my dad got me lots of luffly LUSH products for Xmas) :P We shall return on Tuesday evening and then I’m off Wednesday and back to work as normal Thurs and Fri.

I hope you all have a lovely Christmas this year (extremely happy that the world did not end as predicted). Let me know what you guys are all up to!

Got a few things to tell you all so here goes:

Iain (Dudeadin) & I are back together again! We were broke up for 6 months and during that time we lived apart and led separate lives. I had Maggie and moved in to my Mum’s place, and Iain moved in with his friend. At first things were really rocky between us, but we started to hang out more and more and eventually confessed that we still loved each other dearly and didn’t want to throw away the 6 years of relationship that we had built together. Plus Maggie had not stopped crying since we split up so we felt bad for her :P I understand that both of us may have said hurtful things about each other to mutual online friends because we were hurting, but please know that we are very happy now, happier than we ever were and don’t like to think that others might be thinking ill of us.

The next step is moving out. I am currently living between my Mum’s place and Iain’s but it’s not practical. Iain lives with his friend so I feel like I’m intruding a bit, event though I knew Iain’s friend before we got together and I know he is cool with me. But you know what it’s like.

I am sort of working on and off for Funhouse, which is an independent shop that sells games. It’s only part-time and I am looking for full-time. I applied for a job up in London and out of 25 people I got down to the final 10 with no experience which was pretty cool. Unfortunately, I didn’t get the job, but I have a couple others on the go – just waiting to here back.

Once I am working full-time, Iain and I plan to move back in with each other again. This break has done us the world of good and we are now more honest with each other about things that we could never have spoken about before.

This is the reason why there are a lack of songs on my part. I don’t have my mic set up at my Mum’s, it’s at Iain’s and my music software isn’t in working order so I am in a bit of a dilemma. In March 2013 I should be in a position to be able to record again frequently, but as it stands at the moment, I just don’t have the right living/software conditions to do so. But don’t worry, I haven’t given up!

In regards to health, some of you may be aware of my past operation in October 2011 (or 2010…time flies!) for pre-cancerous cells. Since then, I have had an all clear test result. Unfortunately, I had been getting a lot of pain around September 2012 and called my Dr for an appointment as I was also due to have one. The receptionist informed me that they were fully booked and to call back at the beginning of October, which I did, and then informed me again to call back at the beginning of November. I made her aware of my pain and previous health issue regarding the same matter but she said there was nothing she could do. So, I had to change my Dr’s to get an appointment. I was seen within a week and half and my results came back as borderline. I am obviously concerned, but they wont see me for another 6 months. I’ve tried to push my Dr to take action now but she said there is nothing that can be done without a referral of which she cannot give me. So, it’s a bit of a waiting game at the moment.

Aside from that, I have quit WoW now for almost half a year now and am playing Guild Wars 2 with my friends, Altha, Helen and ofc Iain. We’re having a great time and really supporting each other.

So yeah, that’s my updates for the time being & I hope you are all well!

The internet here is very limited so I am unable to do as much as I used to do, but I am finding ways around it and still managing to upload videos every now and then. Maggie is a lot happier here as the garden is a stones throw away and she can play all she likes. I’ve been able to spend a lot more time with my brother too, whereas before I would only see him weekends. Now I can see him every day and make sure he is okay.

I managed to land a little part time job at my local independent videogame store. It’s only 2 minutes walk away and I had my first shift last Saturday. I really enjoyed it and feel I get on really well with my boss and colleague. It’s nice to be earning again so I know I can fund my gaming addictions ;)

Although everything has changed drastically in my life over the past few months, I do feel I am at last coping with the changes and trying to put my best foot forward with everything I am trying to achieve now. I feel good about life and the future. All I need to do now is get a decent internet connection and everything will be great.

It’s been such a long time since I last updated. So much has changed, my world is upside down and inside out at the moment!

First off…… Dudeadin and I are no longer a couple. It saddens me to write, but unfortunately this is how it is. Maggie has had a lot to put up with because of the breakup, she was with me to start off with, then my family looked after her when I travelled to America, and now she is back with me again. Dudeadin and I will always be friends, regardless of the pain of breaking up after 6 years.

My dad will be moving back up to the countryside soon. It’s about an hour away, but I really do feel its for the best. All of his brothers and friends are up there and I know he misses them. I’m really glad he’s made the decision.

I’ll be making more amendments to the site over the coming week so if you see anything that isn’t working right or needs tweaking, let me know!

Updates! Updates! OK, so I left my job at Domo and have been working really hard on creating original songs both WoW and non-WoW related. I am probably the happiest I’ve been in such a long time, finally getting to focus on and do what I love every day! It doesn’t matter that money is lower, or that I’m not able to socialize so much in the day because this has been my dream for a long time and I don’t  mind any of that!

I have still got a couple of really, just, amazing collabs in the works with some well known names – but I don’t know when they’re coming out. Super excited about them though ;)

I also have some project ideas of my own in mind, however I am currently doing some odds and ends for some people in the WoW community and they’re taking up quite a portion of my time so I’ve not been able to focus 100% on getting my own stuff out there for the time being. Also, had a major problem with Youtube rejecting nearly 90% of the videos I was uploading-saying that it was not me in the video, or me singing, or royalty free music. It got to a point where I was having to explain my rights in such detail as to say that I had ‘written the lyrics in Notepad for Windows Vista’, ‘Mixed the music in Cubase SX’, ‘Music mixed by myself’, ‘in the video: Myself’- and still I was getting rejected. It’s normal to obviously credit the royalty free music with things like artist, song title, link to the song, the license it’s under (both human and legal code), but to have to go as far as to say how I wrote the lyrics and all that was just so frustrating. It took them 2 weeks to accept My Mount & I with several appeals from myself. I mean come on! It’s royalty free music and me singing into a mic! /sigh

How funny was it when Trololololololol got removed from Youtube?! I also got a swifty strike on my account :P I appealed and within about 10 minutes they had reinstated the video and removed the strike. Who reviews these videos? Really?

Anywho… spell check is informing me with a pretty squiggly line that anywho is not a word and squiggly is which has surprised me. And apparently it surprised this little guy too: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WL1foQKD3OI